but God.

God blew my mind! 

I vividly recall the morning of June 28th, a day that started with an immense surge of energy and a strong desire to make the most of it. After a refreshing shower, I prayed, and read a chapter from Bob Goff’s Undistracted, I also shared inspiring thoughts on twitter and even updated my blog. Had a satisfying meal of white rice, stew, and chicken. Life felt good, and I held onto my fragile thread of faith with contentment.

However, the course of the day took an unexpected turn when a friend called with unsettling news that shattered the thread of faith I had been holding onto. I could almost physically sense my chest splitting open and my faith crumbling away. At that juncture, any semblance of hope or faith felt burdensome, beyond my capacity to bear. The pain of faith weighed heavily, and despite my heart's whispered encouragement to persevere, my inner strength was fractured.

I knelt down and had an honest conversation with God. I expressed my inability to continue holding on, my desire to acknowledge my pain without feeling guilty about it, and my sense of having lost all remaining faith, even though faith, as the Bible suggests, has the potential to unleash divine power. It seemed as though there was nothing left.

Throughout the day, I achieved nothing, sinking into self-pity, and surprisingly finding solace in it. Little did I know that this day held my breakthrough. Unexpectedly, God intervened, making His presence felt in a grand way that caught me off guard. When I received the email, I was strangely composed, possibly still in a state of disbelief.

I realized that while I believed that God could perform miracles and bless people, I hadn't truly internalized the possibility that He would do the same for me but He did!!!.

A friend once said - 

"When you are done, Like done! He starts.

"My Strength is made perfect in weakness"