Sustainability

How sustainable is your walk with God?...

Most times I dish out motivational speeches or advices to people, but I don't really live up to them. Although this doesn't invalidate it but I just have to do better.

I spoke about knowing God for yourself in my previous post, to be honest; I felt I did, not until I evaluated myself and realized as much as I felt i knew God for myself but it's more of a theoretical knowledge than practical. I leaned on others adulterated knowledge of Him. 

I decided to take the bold step (when I say bold step, I meant bold bold steps that takes the grace of God) well I started unlearning a lot of things, I wanted to start all over with this relationship. I felt lost, confused, like I was yearning for decisions on what to do next ( I still feel this way). I was scared that I might become complacent ( you know being too relax). Well I came to the conclusion that I don't know how am to do this but this is me and my maker, at the end it'll be just me and Him) Anyhow this happens I'll always ask Him to help me out ( because I know I'll definitely get stuck a lot). This is my life, and God is my God,  I just have to walk this walk on my own for it to be feasible because if someone tells me how I'm meant to serve God, it might just go on for a while but how sustainable is that.

God being gracious, He left us the Bible to be our guide and the Holy Spirit to live in us. That doesn't mean you can't seek for people's opinions when you get stuck but it should only give you a wider perspective on things not necessarily forming your decisions.

I also realized trying this personal adventure with God requires discipline. Personal discipline, the Bible says you'll have to carry your cross and follow me (Luke 9:23). Cross doesn't necessarily mean your problems ( if you're being literal, that's what it is) but I believe it means leaving your fleshy desires that doesn't glorify God (sin) generally. Self control isn't easy, saying no to those addictions, the lies, cheating etc isn't easy but that's where discipline and asking for God's grace comes in. Studying the word and meditating on it just as the spirit leads and not as you're told to. Living life on your own terms with the guidance of the Holy Spirit.

Let's not get ahead of ourselves; I'm not there yet, I'm still trying to understand, ( to be honest I don't really think anyone is 100% there) I simply believe they're people that already have a solid foundation; through the constant renewal of their mind with the word of God, they become steadfast. 

Even though it seems blur now, I know I'm in this for the long haul. So I am simply embracing this seemly anxious state and confusion with the word of God and trusting that His Spirit in me will transform me.

John 11:40, is like my new addiction "Didn't I tell you (I always insert my name) if you believe, you'll definitely see the glory of God.

So I basically just look unto Jesus Christ, knowing for certain with that I can never go wrong.

(Just to reiterate, this blog is pretty much my diary that made it to the internet). 

God bless you as you read, and I pray your life is transformed as you walk your walk of salvation alongside me.

Love,

Kosisochi ♥️