Grace

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Slowly and reluctantly I’m beginning to accept the fact that things will usually not work out the way I planned it, after all, this might explain how I’ve become a full-fledge agnostic and “Dudeist” (Dudeism), this might also explain why I’m out socializing for a day and off the grid for one week and hiding away from everyone and everything for the next one year; so no one would ask how far I’ve gone in my career, how close am I in getting that dream job, when am I buying my first car...

Admittedly this back and forth attitude has given my life inconsistency that I’m not proud of, well I thought at first that it’s my way of recharging myself but I was wrong, it further made me wallow in despair and more sceptic in nature.

In between the jest and the sudden reclusiveness I’m doing all I can to hold on to sanity, some days I live , most days I exist, other days my soul merely hovers restlessly around life’s vicissitudes, the "I’m not a prayer kind of person", (I’m not sure I even know how to), until recently a friend told me; all I have to do is just talk, Tell God what's in my heart, and I shouldn't be afraid to let it all out.

Then I realized that God is not offering to make our problems disappear; He's offering to give us rest for our souls while He does the heavy lifting.

I know now that God gives rest and as I don’t trust myself in my clueless state to find His rest by myself, I trust His rest will find me.
I concluded that the Good things of life are gotten by Strength while the Great things of life are gotten by Grace...

The end...

This awesome piece was written by an amazing friend; West Badejo

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