Love letter to Yahweh

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Dear Lord Jesus,

Today is the 22nd day of January, 2019. I sat on an old stool reminiscing about my life; how I've cried many rivers,  walked through some pain and I've seen my world crumble but you've always been there calling me your own,  cheering me up.  You said I am loved when I couldn't feel a thing,  You said I am strong when I thought I was weak,  You held me when I was falling short and Oooh! I can hear heaven singing out;  you're never alone.
Everybody wants to be king,  we put all our hope inside material things.  In your light I now understand that everything I have ain't everything that I am;  I am so much more,  though sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough but that's when love says you're mine.

Even if You don't move the mountains I'm needing you to move,  if you don't path the waters I wish I could walk through,  if you don't give the answers as I cry out to You. I will always trust in You because You're God and I know You have my best interest at heart ❤.

Just like in the Bible days when You let Peter walk on the sea.  Lord please increase my faith and bend me to come to Thee.  Lord calm the seas in my life,  don't let the storm roar but don't stop the rain so that I might grow.  And when the situations get me down; sometimes I feel like throwing in the towel but with you Lord I can stand.  I know I can make it.

Isn't it amazing how You know my name,  how You walk with me,  oh Yea!  how You talk to me or how You tell me that I am Your own. I still remember how You comfort me and counsel me.  Yet it still amazes me that I am Your friend. So now I pour out my heart to You; here in Your presence I am made new. 💫

Lord can You imagine;  loving what I see when the mirror looks at me,  in a place of no insecurities and I'm finally happy. Finally letting go of all the ones who hurt me; cause they never did deserve me.  Can You imagine!  Saying no to thoughts that try to control me,  remembering all You told me.  Lord Jesus! can you imagine me?  Being free,  trusting You totally. I admit it was hard to see You being in love with someone like me but finally I can.

In a world where nobody has to be afraid, because of Your love,  fear goes away. Letting go of my past and I'm sure glad I have another chance, with my heart dancing because I don't have to read the pages again. 
I may have took some time but now I realize my imperfections were part of Your plan,  and if all things work together in the end, the broken will be made beautiful.
Now I know there's not a hole too deep that your love can't exceed. My heart stands in awe of Your name. Your might love stands strong to the end.
Thank you Jesus.

Love,
Kosisochi Anyaehie

Comments

  1. UnknownJanuary 29, 2019 at 11:26 AM

    Beautiful post.

    I will always trust in You because You're God and I know You have my best interest at heart. Amen

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  2. Kosisochi Vivian AnyaehieJanuary 29, 2019 at 11:31 AM

    😊😊😊😊
    Unveil thou self! Dear unknown

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